94 days until the wedding!
July 16, 2008
That’s what the days counter said on top of the wedding page.
It’s been a while since I updated this blog. The day is coming closer and closer and I don’t feel prepared at all. To be honest, I’m really anxious during this time. I know I shouldn’t have that feeling but… oh, well. Part of me never wants the day to come at all while the other part of me wishes that today is ‘the day’.
Let’s do some soul searching… What makes me worry? I’m worry neither about the future nor the life after marriage. Living together with Edy? It’s not a big deal since I can adapt quickly :D. The wedding day itself?……yeah, it’s more like it. I know it’s silly. It’s just a wedding (and… 1 celebration thereafter in Indonesia, mind you) but just like any other girls want (I presume), we want our wedding day to be perfect. I feel like I’m worried about everything on the day ^.^’. Will the flower look beautiful? will the dress fit perfectly? will the ambience be perfect? and so on…
I tend to micromanage on everything (I know, that’s not the best trait to share) and I hope I can let go of this feeling. In fact, I really have to; as part of my personal development. I just want the day to be a very joyous occasion where I’ll remember it always, full of love, laughter, and happiness as how any wedding day should be. And the most important thing, I’d like to share this feeling with all of those around us.